Nothing ridiculously fake.

One year since I came here the last time..and I seriously laugh at the address name the moment I saw it.
No I didnt mean its childish but..uhuh.

Things really changed.
I might be more determined now. but not more motivated.
The road might be clearer now. but not easier.
I have to go through all this. I kept murmuring to myself. you'll do it one way or another. Maybe in the end I'll just laugh at all this. just maybe.

If you only knew what I'm experiencing. If I only knew what you're experiencing. But that would have been too good then. too good that it would become a dream. I know that.
I know that and know how to deal with it. But I'm tired babe.
So tired that I cant even think of you. I start to forget how ppl look like. how you speak. how my life went before JC.
ridiculous but true.

Its raining now.
It was violent just then but much more peaceful now. I'd never heard a rain that hit as hard as this before I came to Singapore. so hard as if hitting someone in revenge.
Everything would have become white if its daytime. only the raindrops. nothing else you can see. nothing else in the world. It's grandiose. as if in a maze.
Now it only sounds desolated. sure. no one else's awake now.
And I'm going. to become more normal. to start rushing. so that I can get closer to my dream. well. a dream I havent really define yet. but so what. get to somewhere first. otherwise you'll just get to nowhere.
That's for sure.

Good night babe.

SoFarAway.

Only last night did i realise how long have i not logged into this blog..and it's nothing ridiculous as i've sign up for so many websites and blogs thus i might have just forgotten any one of them for months and never realise it.
The only ridiculous thing is about myself. What the heck is it that i don't even understand what i myself is thinking..?
Yup, well, i haven't got a crush on him..and that's for sure.
but then y do i care about anything about him..?
He's just a friend and not a friend as close as Loli or Easley..someone who can have no contact with you for weeks and you won't even miss him.
Everyone seems so faraway from me..maybe that's just because i unconsciously pull myself away from others too much. I'm gradually becoming a person who can sit in the classroom and never say a word for the whole day.
Well. okay. that's just like what it used to be so never mind.

Obsessed by Tizzy Bac and Olivia Lufkin recently..going to sing Olivia's song Wish on the concert in our hostel. May i be lucky enough to sing it well. (it may be the opening song as i'm the first one to sign it lol- -)

coming soon...

题目出自小四..版权仍归小四所有吧...

i shall be updating in days but now i gt to read ss!...

Hate Without Frontiers-Sweetbox

My aching world is fading pulses heartbeats oxidised
My one temptation last sensation is only suicide
My hunger screams, my blister bleeds and even though I try
To try to find the places where the pieces of my heart collide
Where I am flying totally weightless in a desert sky
Exploring, soaring in the deepest corner of my mind
And like a phoenix out of fire I'll be reborn to try
Ashes to dust, and dust to life

Hate without frontiers
...

我既非一无所有而来.也不会一无所有而去. I'll be reborn to try.

I Ask All Siants

I can feel u here with me..i can feel ur heart

bt y i cnt feel my heart?

do i luv u? or did i ever?

i guess i'll be escaping as i can c d distance betwn us...maybe tht's smthing tht cnt be changed..bt u cnt c it. u r nt here when i nid u n tht's it. tht's wad i only nid...u said u no i nid understanding. bt u dun even understand me. u dunno tht i nid smone to be here with me so i can cry..i've been pretending to be cool for too long..bt u cnt c. u nvr c...maybe i shouldn compare u with Easley. i shouldn compare anyone with him. tht's wrong...bt he's becoming a standard...maybe i juz should be with him..if i gt refuse him. den i should refuse anyone else on d earth...

oh baby i dunno wad im missing...

maybe i'll nvr be able to explain to u how important is a lantern to me. n u may nvr understand everything i had to explain..im tired darling..maybe i'll nvr be able to sae gdbye. bt u'll nvr be able to touch my heart even if u r holding my hand...

i dun luv u baby..bt maybe i'll nvr sae..i've hurted enough hearts n even though i do nothing there'll still be broken heart...

d only thing i leave to u is d 'nice dream'..i'll leave it only to u 4 all tis years when v r tgthr..

我曾经说过.在七夕与光棍节之间开始恋爱的人最可怜.因为他们两个节日都过不成.

nw i find tis mocking..i should laugh at myself 4 being such a great seer

.

i c ppl all puting things thy want&wish on thir blog..

bt wad i really wan&wish?

I WISH THT I'VE NVR WANTED ANYTHING BEFORE..

My Life. ..

Im getin busy t forget him. ..

YES. ..thts th correct attitude thts th rite way. ..

n so tht i wun miss him. ..

HAH..juniors are having thr math&English tests tdae n tht reminds me wad things was like a year before when we were having the tests. ..

n many memories. ..

NE Show Chpt2 Black Knights

yah..thiz actually's a jet show>>>>>>>

smthin tht any country will show on thir national day. ..